Poverty Blog: So Sad Its Funny

My current situation isn't funny, but it is laughable. I'm a freelance journalist who used to have a day job as a publicist. I got "furloughed" in June. Actually, two weeks prior to my layoff, I filed for unemployment and told my former employer that I considered myself de jure unemployed because he had paid me late for the past six months. At that time I hadn't been paid for my prior two weeks work and it was three weeks later.

My unemployment claim was rejected because I have another employer: myself. It's not funny, but as I said it is laughable, because the money I make freelancing doesn’t cover my rent every month let alone my bills. I live modestly in an inexpensive studio apartment in Flatbush Brooklyn. I accumulate few material possessions and don't shop for clothes --or much of anything --very often, only out of necessity. I don't impulse buy, or spend money on sweets like cupcakes or chocolate or vices like cigarettes or booze. I do get my hair cut every few months, which I think is pretty fair since I wear it short and it really needs clipping every four weeks to look as chic as I would like. I got a mani-pedi last month for my sister's wedding, but I don't indulge in that luxury regularly though I wish I could.

I know the country--and world-- is in a financial crisis even though some high-level government official on TV said a few weeks ago the recession is over. At least that’s what I heard—I don’t have a television. But, that doesn’t mean anything to me or dozens of my lesbian and feminist friends and acquaintances, particularly in NYC, who are struggling to get by. I feel like I need to chronicle my trials and travails--and triumphs-- to preserve this time in herstroy: A lesbian-feminist’s attempt to support herself in a depression that is not a recession that is not over and probably won't be for a long, long time.

I know U.S. society is premised on the heterosexual, nuclear and dual-income family (well, modern day version). But lesbians have always been at a disadvantage--we have only ourselves to support us, we can't get married --or haven’t been able to until recently-- and as an anti-assimiationalist I never want to. So, making our own way in what is still a man's world is not easy, especially when women still make 67 cents for every dollar a man makes. And, lesbians make less that straight women and Black women make less than white women and so on and so forth.

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